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Para los que leen mi blog quiero agradecerles por tomar el tiempo y leerlo. Bueno les cuento mi graduacion fue espectacular y la verdad ni queria ir pero al entrar por esa puerta me senti tan emocionada por todos las personas que estaban alli luego cuando fui a pararme ami lugar pense luego de esto vas a saber quienes son tus verdaderos amigos Y saben que mucha razon tendria mi amigo querido que siempre esta alli para mi sigue a mi lado por lo menos unas 2 veces a la semana hablamos y las hermanas de otra mama que me suigen textiando como las quiero y todos los demas se esfumaron como la ven la graduation cambia todo saben nomas los verdaderos amigos siguen en contacto y la verdad siento que highschool fue una perdida de tiempo que no quiero vivir otra vexz y ahora el colegio por 3 anos y a trabajar---------- No se que te hize y me gustaria saberlo cada vez que me mira y dice un comentario me llena de tristesa me hace sentir como si en verdad me viera como ella se expresa pero la verdad quiero que sepa que como la basura tiro sus comentarios quiero ser la persona mas grande ahorita mi vida va de maravilla y si eh cometido errores en el pasado y me eh equivocado en muchas cosas inclullendo a las amistades que he tenido pero gracias a eso soy la persona que hoy soy nada mas que yo y no pretendo ser mejor que nadie seguire siendo una persona independiente y no caer en las tonterias de ninitas malcriadas que solo buscan fastidiar y esperare aque ellas reflecionen solitas y a mi me dejen en pas gracias al respecto que me tengo a mi misma y amis papas que me criearon bien no voy haccer el escandalo que quieren esas NInitas que son una perdida de tiempo y una verguenza por ser tan inmaduras! es todo por hoy.......... To the most amazing person in my life yes you reading this letter, If your reading this letter its probably because you want to know how much I love you!!! My love for you is endless ,its from her to the moon a billion times your way of being makes me love you even more i might not say it but i do my <3 belongs to you! lets just say you make my hear skip a beat like a scratched up cd every time i see yo ;) you know every single thing about me and your gorgeous smile makes me love you even more those hypnotizing eyes when you look at me i j love all the little things you do because its you they add up to and i can go on and on about everything you do your my partner in crime my best friend and my sister from another mother they be hatting cause the jelous bout you and me baby this are some of the reasons that "I LOVE YOU !" LOVE YOUR ONE AND ONLY SISTER/PARTNER IN CRIME/YOUR EVERYTHING/BESTFRIEND -Bella ;D muahhh 8:23 PM And I'm Thinking of you its impossible to belive how you said i was the one how i was so fulishly fulled i cant belive i did.my words ment nothing now all i can say is F.U. AND everything you now and everything you said TO JUST PUT ON A SHOWim never gonna love anymore you I CANT BELIVE I FELL Hay veces que me quedo pensando en el.. Y siento alegria, una alegria unica. Cuando lo veo caminando no hay nadie mas alrededor.. Esos ojos, cuando me mira solo siento que no tengo que hablar, que todo esta dicho a traves de las miradas. Esa sonrisa, es tan contagiosa. Sus abrazos, los siento tan sinceros.. Maldita sea, detesto que haya llegado a este punto. Si, el me ENCANTA, pero la cosa no es mutua, y eso es lo jodido. Mis amigas me dicen, "Oye ya fue cojuda, el huevon te trata pesimo, se bota.. etc". Y en esos momentos dudo, pero el sentimiento me gana.. Cuantas veces dije "YA BASTA, AQUI QUEDO TODO" Y sigo.. Porque aun siento que debo seguir con esto. Aparte no es nada facil que alguien te deje de gustar. Si fuera tan sencillo como decir "SI o NO" como las huevas, pero no es asi.. Todo es mucho mas complicado. En que momento llego? .. PORQUE llego?.. son muchas preguntas y NADIE me las va a saber responder.. Cada minuto que he pasado con el lo recuerdo a la perfeccion.. Cada lugar visitado tambien.. Puta fue no? Mucha empalagosidad, no estoy nada inspirada para escribir, solo quise poner lo que AHORITA estoy sintiendo.. amor. ESTO NO ES CAPRICHO NI AFAN.. ES CARINIO puede Ser que si y puede ser que no pero porque las mentiras y los enganos yo no puedo comprender en que mundo pensaste que no me iba a enterar la verdad me hago bollas yo misma y qusiera saber q fue lo que te iso cambiar porque de la nada cambiaste tu forma de serer porque dime que fue lo que paso que te iso cambiar porque te desquitas conmigo porque dime para ayudarte porque no comprendo y me siento que te estoy perdiendo que entre mas y mas te estas alegando mas de mi i mi amistad esta en vano porque siento que ya no existe... my Culinary family these are pretty much my true and honest friends that are always there for me thoe this year i don't see them this much they still remain in touch to see how i am they are the best and one of the mosst amazing thing in my life i am thankful to have them in my life Michelle,Ricardo,Jennifer,Irving(kitty cat),Miriam,Juanita,Miara,and of course one of our instructers Chef Mike i love eversingle one of them ;D Well what can i say those promises made and worries i had came the day i was scared to confront some people don't get it. others just judge but in reality their also scared to get judged and making others feel completely useless I'm actually disapointed in a person that i really cared and i guess will still care about today was the last time i tried talking to him. Yes he can be one of the sweetest persons you meet but he changed towards me and ended up leaving my friendship and ignoring me acting like i don't even exist....I was really upset to be honest..but why....well it turned out i really liked this guy but.... Why waste my time on a guy that isn't worth the time i really careed and liked talking to him but theirs people in this world that if you care to much about them and demonstrate it they can let you down He mite be reading this right now i really don't care no more and those fake friends that talk about me or stab me on the back thanks guys for pretending to be something your not my friendship to you guys will always be available even though you guys are just trying to bring me down but hear this i will always have a smile on my face and always be standing straight looking at you in the face knowing who is really my friend you won't know i know and in my mind ill laugh at the fake person you are.. y'all now who you are. MY Time..Will Always Be Available for you even thoe the friendship you offer me is faker then the extentions,make-up,nails etc y'all wear. but my friendship will always be loyal true and sencire thanks for reading my nonsence Look at myself in the mirror I only see my flaws....can I wear this will I be judged.....whatever!! Sometimes I feel like I try to hard and other times I hit rock bottom an just wear the baggiest clothes I have so no one judges my body type or anything of asort but it's Time for me to get I've this cause yes I'm an insecure Mess!... It feels like you don't care it feels like I'm just a waste of your time I really wish I could disappear tell me how you do it tell me how you can pretend that nothing has happened that I don't want to feel this way but it's my fault I point the finger at my self cause you was always on my mind yes you I got to be strong because your not worth the time you destroyed my sanity but I got a be strong I'm not lookin at yu I'm lookin passed yu now no more lookin at the past those pictures on the wall destroy them I dnt want them anymore need to replace it with a love that's stronger ..... As I grow older with the time I still ask my self the question when I was little and watched my favorite movie where's my peterpan the one tht never wants to grow up but stay forever young with me the one tht always wants to play and hear my stories the one tht will fight even pirates to be together I want to go to Neverland with you yes you and let's come back when forever end lol Woke up today with thinking I'm turning 18 on Saturday and I got to thinking I don't want to grow up I want to find if there is a Neverland I remember when I was a little girl I dreamed of growin up and when it's finally here I wish I could rewind tthe time that has passed I want to find that magical world where happiness is forever and only happy thoughts yes my own little world hehehe Infact I feel I'm never goin to grow p that I'm always goin to be that wierd little girl that ha those random ideas about eeverythin that tries to hide those tricks with a smile I'm forever gonna be my wierd self ;p Sentada....masbien acostada en mi cama viendo Asia el techno blanco Igual que mis pensamientos tratando de comparender este corazoncito que me tiene Detro de la confusion del misterio y el amor no se en que forma cave este sentimento sierro Los ojos por un momento y tu sonrisa aparece derepente en mis pensamientos miro hacia fuera encontrar a un rosal pintado de el sentimento que empiesa a sentir mi corazoncito sera que por fin llego el amor a mi Vida ? El sabe que lo quiero ? Se lo eh dicho... Pero este corazoncito me empiesa a Canasar a fastidiar....no... Siento que la persona que algun Dia fue empiesa a destruirse y otra persona no no soy yo pero soy yo pero estoy siendo controlada por ese Terco corazoncito Time to go to sleep I can't get him out my mind for some reason;p oh well il guess I'm a dream bout him without him nowing The perfect guy.I dont want another boyfriend. I hate this dating game. I want someone who would treat me right, And tell me im perfect in every way. I want someone that cant live without me, And says it everyday. I want who understands me, And kisses my pain away. I want someone who would hold me and not let go, Even if I try to run away. I want someone who wont leave me, If another comes his way. I want someone who only see's me, Who fears I'm going to go away. I want someone I can call my own and who isnt always perfect but I think so anyways. I want someone who sees my flaws and loves me for them. I wanted that person to be you. But I guess we just cant always get that guy. I guess I just want, The perfect guy. its 11:11 make a wish, (.........) look in to his eyes and smile.... Why?.......because everything you could ever wish for is right in front of you... you cant see your future because iyou're stuck in the present with him there isnt any future with out him life would be useless without him by your side its difficult to see you break down like this because your not the person i use to know you where happy with him and for some reason your closing your self in.....just know im here for you and that i do love you no matter what you are one of my best friends sometimes its obious but sometimes it isnt how it kills me inside not being able to be by your side its true when i say that "you make my heart skip a beat like a scratched up cd"its frustrating reciveing your texts and having to hold my self back and telling you how i feel that i still like you and want to be with you Near to the door he paused to stand as he took his class ring off her hand all who were watching did not speak as a silent tear ran down his cheek and through his mind the memories ran of the moments they walked and ran in the sand (hand in hand) but now her eyes were so terribly cold for he would never again have her to hold they watched in silence as he bent near and whispered the words "I love you" in her ear as he put on his ring and wanted to die and just then the wind began to blow as they lowered her casket into the snow... this is what happens to man alive... when friends let friends drink and drive. Hay veces que me quedo pensando en el.. Y siento alegria, una alegria unica. Cuando lo veo caminando no hay nadie mas alrededor.. Esos ojos, cuando me mira solo siento que no tengo que hablar, que todo esta dicho a traves de las miradas. Esa sonrisa, es tan contagiosa. Sus abrazos, los siento tan sinceros.. Maldita sea, detesto que haya llegado a este punto. Si, el me ENCANTA, pero la cosa no es mutua, y eso es lo jodido. Mis amigas me dicen, "Oye ya fue cojuda, el huevon te trata pesimo, se bota.. etc". Y en esos momentos dudo, pero el sentimiento me gana.. Cuantas veces dije "YA BASTA, AQUI QUEDO TODO" Y sigo.. Porque aun siento que debo seguir con esto. Aparte no es nada facil que alguien te deje de gustar. Si fuera tan sencillo como decir "SI o NO" como las huevas, pero no es asi.. Todo es mucho mas complicado.En que momento llego? .. PORQUE llego?.. son muchas preguntas y NADIE me las va a saber responder.. Cada minuto que he pasado con el lo recuerdo a la perfeccion.. Cada lugar visitado tambien.. Puta fue no? Mucha empalagosidad, no estoy nada inspirada para escribir, solo quise poner lo que AHORITA estoy sintiendo.. amor. ESTO NO ES CAPRICHO NI AFAN.. ES CARINIO Aunque Te De lo Mismo ! El me mira, y yo me quedo estatica. Escuchando una cancion de Shakira, me pongo a pensar como va la situacion.. "Nadie piensa en ti como lo hago yo, aunque te de lo mismo".. Que dificil es todo esto, a veces digo como un sentimiento tan hermoso puede llegar a ser tan dificil, tan doloroso?.. No entiendo, ayudame a comprenderlo nesesito tu ayuda para saber que es sste sentimiento que tengo adentro ya que el corazon y el cerebro estan en una batalla para conbatir al amor. Sometimes i feel life is like a faires wheel ride it tales you round and round untill theres a moment where your at the top of your life where you can see everything perfect but then again ypu get that feeling that awsome feeling when it goes faster and faster that feeling of emotion you dont now when its gonna stop and when you get off the feres wheel ridie your legs tremble you cant find your balance for an instant but un your mind you want to get on again and feel on top of the world again and it could be caus of the things it gets out of your mind or makes you think of the person you think of A feres wheel ride is something a time that can mak,e you have so many clear thoughts jusut to be peaceful and laugh(: Amores he tenido pero uno como el tuyo no dejare que se me escape de las manos porque eres un misterio que yo quiero descubrir una aventura que yo quiero vivir amor no temas mas no sere una de las que te rompa el corazon mira dentro de mi te veras solo ati eres el motivo de mi existir no......no dejare que te me escapes de las manos porque eres un misterio que yo quiero descubrir una aventura que yo quiero vivir junto ati es donde existe mi fellizidad confia en mi y te demostrare lo que es amar |
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